..waiting..

Lagu galau saya, sungguh. Sekarang gak terlalu addict lagi sih, tapi.. err, tetap aja setiap denger liriknya masih terlalu kena. O.o. Yang saya bold berarti itu lirik kena banget yak :)

Waiting
Tom Devlins.

Waiting at the station,
Waiting for the right moves,
Waiting in the basement,
Waiting for the right cues,
Waiting in a daydream,
Waiting in the slipstream

Waiting...
Waiting in the right bars,
Waiting in the right shoes,
Waiting in a fast car,
waiting in the airports,
waiting for my airmiles,
waiting in slow motion,
coming through the turnstiles.

And if you ever change your mind,
you know I'm not hard to find,
and if you ever need someone...
I'll still be waiting...

Waiting with the orphans,
waiting for the bee stings,
they tell me that success brings,
waiting in the half light,
waiting for your whole life,
waiting for an ideal...a low deal...a no deal,
to play your stereotype.

And if you ever find the time,
you know I'm not far behind,
And if you ever need someone...

I'll still be waiting...
just waiting for a friend.
I say it's alright,
It's alright my friend
...just waiting.

..this is insane.

Kalau yang ngefollow twitter saya, mungkin akan tersadar betapaa... saya seriing banget dengerin lagu Way Down In The Hole (various artist - tapi saya dengerinnya biasanya yang Steve Earle sih) dan Woke Up This Morning (Alabama 3).

Which is? Opening dari 2 acara lama HBO yang sangaaat terkenal, The Wire dan The Sopranos. Dan yang lebih penting lagi, isinyaaaa... err, ajaib?

Ini saya kasih cuplikannya.

When you walk through the garden
You gotta watch your back
Well I beg your pardon
Walk the straight and narrow track
If you walk with Jesus
He's gonna save your soul
You gotta keep the devil
Way down in the hole

- Way Down In The Hole

..dan...

You woke up this morning
Got yourself a gun,
Mama always said you'd be
The Chosen One

You're one in a million
You've got to burn to shine,
But you were born under a bad sign,
With a blue moon in your eyes.

- Woke Up This Morning.

Liriknya memang betul-betul.. err, ajaib, kan? Bau-bau kekerasan, anarkisme, sinisme, dan keras gimana gitu. Berkesan depresi (tapi emang cocok sih sama acaranya. Acara HBO yang lama-lama kebanyakan genrenya noir drama euy.)

..TAPI DEPRESINYA ITU LHOO. Saya jadi cintaaa.

Gak tahu. Mood dan selera saya ajaib. Entah kenapa setiap dengerin saya jadi makin semangat *?*. Rasanya seperti dengerin fantasi terliar saya atau gimanaaa gitu. Enak aja dengerinnya. Bikin semangat (meski liriknya itu gaje begitu), Entahlah, nada rocknya? Atau uhukfangirlingsayasamaTonydanOmaruhuk membuatnya terdengar enak? Entahlah.

Tapi satu hal yang pasti,

Saya selalu mainin ini setiap malam-malam tepat setelah saya download, cuma buat menyemangati diri sendiri menghadapi kesetressan dunia.

Spam banget? Err, abaikanlah. Ini cuma post kegalauan doang kok :D

Blame it all upon a rush of blood to the head.

Jika anda merasa aneh dengan saya beberapa hari ini -- dengan moodynya saya yang agak berlebihan dan sangat nista, ini dia jawaban (yang tak kalah ababilnya dan nista): Golden Globe Award 2011

Yep, acara award film dan TV di Amerika sono, yang menganugrahi insan-insan perfilman berbakat di sana dengan tropi yang bentuknya amatsangatnista yang berupa piala dengan bola dunia emas. Unyu ya penjelasan saya?

Yang bikin saya kecewa ; pemenangnya.


Ingat wishlist nista yang saya pernah tulis mengenai Golden Globe tahun ini? Yep, wishlist dudul yang saya bikin tepat setelah ngeliat nominasinya yang.. err, cukup ajaib. Masa The Tourist masuk comedy, sih? lolololol, satu-satunya yang lucu dari The Tourist mah fakta bahwa entu film masuk comedi. Ataupun Burlusque. Dan buat nominasi TV.. sebuah keajaiban besar datang saat Piper Perabo malah dapet nominasi di Best Lead Actress- Drama. Saya aja bahkan gak pernah denger namanya sebelum dinominasikan -.-.

..ta-tapi, saya cintaasdfghjkl; banget sama nominasi Lead Actor In Drama- TV. UNYUU. Satu-satunya snub cuma Kyle Chandlernya Friday Night Lights -- dimana itu kejam juga sih mengingat Emmy aja udah nyadar o.o. Saking cintanya, saya sampai bingung mau milih yang mana (di wishlist saya gak nulis kan siapa yang harus menang? Saya sih agak draw dengan Cranston-Hamm-Hall, condongnya ke arah Jon Hamm sih :D.)

..TAPI KENAPA DIANTARA list itu yang menang malah Steve Buscemi? For god's sake, banyak orang deh kayaknya yang bilang dia agak sedikit... miscast. Entahlah, saya kan belum nonton *pasang senyum alim*. Tapi serius, this years is belong to Hamm, for god's sake. And Cranston doesn't get his GG yet eventhough he's a three-peat Emmy winner.

Dan lalu yang bikin saya kecewa lagi secara berturut-turut: Social Network menang terlalu banyak, Inception tidak menang apa-apa sama sekali, Glee menang lagi (geez, season 2 kayaknya gosip-gosipnya gak bagus-bagus banget, malah boleh dibilang dull) .. daan Boardwalk Empire menang banyak. O.o. Padahal saya di wishlist bilang "no mad men winning again" -- tapi giliran gak menang, saya malah emo begini. Haha. Takdir emang ajaib.

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What I like -- a few stuff: Natalie Portman's winning. Katey Sagal's winning (oke, saya sebenarnya sukaan Elizabeth Moss yang menang, tapi gak papalah. Wanita ini udah terlalu lama disnub), Laura Linney's winning, Jim Parson's winning.

...tapi bahkan speechnya Katey Sagal dipotong seenak udel, sementara giliran Collin Firth (konyolnya, filmnya adalah King's Speech), speechnya dari satu break ke break lain aja belum selesai-selesai, sampai ada jokes: "Collin Firth akan melanjutkan pidatonya di SAG" lol.

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Lalu, apa yang menghibur saya setiap memikirkan GG tahun ini? Err, host nya lumayan, meski buat saya leluconnya kejam lol. Memikirkan baju-baju di red carpet.

Tapi, quote di bawah inilah sesungguhnya penyemangat saya.

We ask Jack McBrayer, who plays the sunny Kenneth on 30 Rock, why he looked happier than most of the night’s winners. “I still can’t believe I’m invited to these things,” he replies with a giant grin. “It’s a hoot.”



Updating!

1. Thank and link the person who awarded me this award

Thanks for my beloved classmate, Dinda ♥. This award is ... err, too much for me. I'm not a good blogger at all.

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2. Share 8 things about my self.

Meh, it won't be easy. I'm not a kind of person who likes to open up myself -.-.

a) A TV-freak, I guess. Western series, to be exact. Some of my favorites are Six Feet Under (yeay, "old" show, but the quality is still hard to be passed by the new series anyway), Glee, CSI, Mad Men (again, a "boring" show, but it's just so dramaa~), How I Met Your Barney Mother, Friends (don't say "old show" agaiiin, it's just awesomeee), House M.D, Dexter, err, lots. And I don't even say my guilty pleasure yet, lol.

b) Always love to write and draw. It's my passion, I guess. But I still learn, A LOT.

c) Can play piano, but not very well. Listening/hearing is my best, and technique (major scale, etc) is my worst. Geez.

d) A bad speaker in front of people. Really, I'm better writing what I want to say than to speak it in front of A LOOOT of people. Geez.

e) Love reading. Eventhough now.. I don't read very much anymore. Somehow, I became picky and pickier about buying books. Maybe because they are getting more expensive. (Blame our government for this -- why they set the tax so high on book, while book is the key of information?) I only buy a book from my favorite author or a book that people reccomended. Sad.

f) A proscastinator. Yeay, and obviously, I'm not proud of it.

g) Hate the public school's system. It's killing me, really. WHAT THE FREAKING REASON CAN'T I DRAW? *getting angry* I understand the lessons, too. You know what -- I was drawing too in my Junior High School and it's cool. I even got the 3rd place on the placement test of my senior high school. SO WHAT THE FREAKING REASOOON?

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*forget it, really. I just need to talk, I guess.*

h) I can't live without my pecil. And paper. And eraser. I just always need them.

3. Pay it forward to 8 bloggers that i have recently discovered

♥Nabila's ♥Evey's ♥Risa's ♥Ayyuki's ♥Olivia's ♥Bella's ♥Dimas's

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4. Contact those bloggers and tell them about their awards

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Dan ngomong-ngomong, header saya ganti. Itu sengaja, melambangkan semangat saya mengejar cita-cita.. begitulah *halah*. It's a long journey.. Still so long.